moving but i don't know where

i have to make my move. i'm pretty stagnated here in the house. sometimes i feel like i didn't have to finish my degree in architecture coz all i'll ever be is the yaya of my niece. i'm scared to work outside the philippines. i'm scared of what i'll discover about myself. i am not that confident with what i know and what i could do. i am scared to discover my mediocrity and that i was pretending all along that i was good in arhitecture. i wish i could stay in the classrooms. i am much more confident in studying and taking exams.

i want to get out of the house and move to singapore or dubai. but there's a prob, i am scared and worried and unconfident.

i had trouble sleeping one night. i had a lot of ideas then. i wanted to write two things. one was a story about my friendship with patrick and sha2 entitled "the story of three". i planned to create with our pictures throughout the schoolyear. the 2nd idea was to write something about what i learned while working for the yearbook. it would be something like "what i learned in kindergarten". i just discovered that in any group or organization, it would always be friendship that is important. not the activities, not the meetings but the the friendship.