living through somebody else's life

i read most of my UP college friends blogs. i catch up with their lives through what they write. we've been writing since our TFA days, in that thick black or blue logbook. expressing our feelings, angsts and unrequited love poems. nothing has changed much with the way each one writes. i can still see their own style of writing hasn't changed. what has changed are the topics, points of view and experiences. basically, they are still the same friends i have been with in college. it just seems so exciting now to get together with them because of the long distance and long time we've been apart from each other.

they have been living the life that i wished to have before.... graduating from UP Diliman, reviewing for board exams, passing the board exams, getting a job, travelling around, working in Dubai or somewhere else, teaching in UP or any school for an archi subject, writing for an architectural magazine, getting paid to photograph buildings etc... they were able to achieve those dreams... im still not sure if i have achieved even half of that yet.

part of me is still angry, regretting the fact that i never graduated from UP Diliman...
if i could only turn back time.... i would really do things differently....

anyways, its done.. i'm happy of where i am now. i am happy that somehow i still got through it all and still graduated with a degree in BS architecture. i will get my license soon. i really hope to get my head into that board exam and review well and maybe, just maybe... get into the top ten. hehehe dreaming!

life could have been better if it had happened differently... but..... i dont know......